021_TWO BIRDS

TWO BIRDS Heart is a bird and so is Freedom. It feels natural that Heart yearns for Freedom. because without her… Heart cannot l i v e. But if Heart becomes cage to Freedom It is also natural for Freedom to run! She cannot be free until Heart is a prison because Freedom can't f l y. If then Heart yearns for her presence let Him yearn from afar. Let's call it - a SAFETY DISTANCE! So it must be until the two square their misunderstandings and tell each other old resentments. and when they level all this… they'll leave doors and windows open to each other – no questions asked, no limitations, to visit as much as they want to. And yearn! Then they'll say goodbye and seek and find each other again… in short - they'll l i v e and teach us to live. ABOUT HEART AND FREEDOM Sometime, long ago, Heart killed Freedom inside him because He couldn't or shouldn't, live with her. They even said He wasn't supposed to live with her! When Heart killed Freedom He didn't know How to live. Without Freedom, He couldn't survive. Freedom never forgot nor forgave! So it seems that sometimes just for the fun of it, hits Heart in the face! To remind Him, to remember. It has woman's hand and her blow isn't strong. After the anger here there reproach, mild and soft, strong is embrace – after, and tears – those are intense. And so it will be until it is clear to Heart where He belongs and forgives himself, to have killed Freedom, who just like Heart cannot die forever. Is this a sin? Is this sin at all, I ask?!

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DECEPTION Unprecedented is the crime of Heart, who kills Freedom inside him. With it kills the innocence of a child and gives birth to Responsibility. What should a child do with it, so alone so God - to himself? Responsibility is a reward for lost Innocence, the reward is penalty and the sentence is - growing up! DISPAIR Buried under my sadness I haven't noticed that with Her I lost two of my unborn children too! Their names are Faith and Trust. More than lost, I never let them be born! WITH MY HEAD IN MY HANDS AND WITH HEART ON THE FLOOR I gave birth to two monsters, with same names but completely without any content! Trust became banking business and Faith became clergy, two deformed creatures, Motherless bastards, who were supposed to become - FREEDOM! What should I - poor me! - do now so alone and helpless, without Her!? I killed Her in my Heart, with children without Her unable to love and live…