030_"ALL YOU NEED IS LOVE" - is denied rage!

"Thousands arrested, hundreds injured and 8 deaths after 4 days of protests. Isn't this what a police state looks like?"

This is what "meditating" does to people! Meditating and preaching universal LOVE! 

They both cover RAGE and they both make it look like it can be dealt with and dismissed by simply avoiding expressing... while in reality, our denied rage is piling up, waiting for some lucifer to manipulate with it. 

Lucifer manipulates with us as long as we have denied rage! We are denied rage so he manipulates us by manipulating our rage. 

Why do we hold it? It is because we have learned that we cannot show our rage to God. he might be angry with s if we show it to Him. The saints don't show rage! 

That's all BULSHIT! 

He'd be only too happy to guide us through our rage. Even (especially then!) when our anger is all about Him. And it ALWAYS is!

All around the world, all the rage there is, is about our denied rage for God!

We deny it and then it bursts in our hands with some unpredicted event like the killing of a black person. And when this happens... our rage (and our "righteousness" generalizes because rage has always been there despite all LOVE going around, and singing ALL YOU NEED IS LOVE, and "meditation" and all other crap... Like holding hands and chanting singing Kumbaya... 

Why? Because it is simpler when you polarise your anger and join the rest of a gang in lynching somebody. Anger can be guided by people with a hidden agenda. It is they who stage our reality by starting the violence. They use our Rage to do it! 

Then it is always "others" who can be blamed for it. 

Good people OWN THEIR PAIN. 

They never let dictators and idiots use their Pain for doing what they are doing now. 

So - own your Pain! Don't let it go far away from you and do mad things without your control!

Those who misuse your unconscious rage only have the power because we don't own our rage. 

They own our rage and can do with it whatever they please because we let them.

We don't mind, we don't feel like being accountable for what they do with OUR RAGE! 

All that Hippie ideology of the Sixties... with great words and big signs like MAKE LOVE NOT WAR, PEACE, UNIVERSAL LOVE, goodness, forgiveness...

was a well-schemed plan, so the Western civilization could produce the future generations who won't be able (in fact they are not!) fighting back when attacked and manipulated with. 

They will just lie down and die (as they do now!). 

Now the grandsons of those hippies and their daughters have a big mess in their heads. They believe that promiscuity and not being sexually defined - is all we need to be happy! 

They don't know if they are coming or going. 

They don't know where their rage is coming from! Or what causes it.

They are just afraid of what they might do with what is manifesting through them. Besides, they don't know where it comes from. 

Not knowing themselves - they are afraid of themselves! They don't trust themselves.

A bunch of irresponsible kids who don't give a damn about becoming responsible and grow up. 

That's socialism! Remaining infantile as a society - that is socialism! 

Hippies begot children who can't produce because they lack creativity (in fact they are becoming sterile!) they can't care for themselves nor the children, so they want to socialize the child care and let the State take care of them.

These children now only know how to loot and be angry and demand their "human rights"... but have no responsibility for anything they do. Like children they hey can't be held accountable for anything they decide they want to do.

BUT WHAT HAPPENS then, after they win their battles?!!

Do they have a plan?

Do they know how they want to organize life after they "win" and start ruling their "new" world of peace, love, and equal possibilities?? Will they work, or will they just continue to loot? 

I have seen this happening in my country in 1991!

There is nothing more miserable than a country that cannot survive by the working hands of its people. They became afraid of Freedom and fell back into the claws of dependency and Debt. They felt more comfortable this way! That's how ideology works.  

That's where my nation is now and it was a crappy decision! 

As much as I hate repeating myself in certain things it is true that the Old World depends on America. 

The Americans saved Europe from WWI and WWII. And then us from the Balkan wars in 1991. 

Is now America falling for some stupid "revolution" that doesn't even know what will do after it "wins"? 

With the end of America, it is the end of the rest of the civilized free world!.

Save it! Fight for it, you are fighting now for all of us. For the world.

One of the steps our Creation will take to make us understand will come from the inside. This one we won't be able to fight away.

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My God is saying:

I got you surrounded from inside and outside...

This time I come for you from within and from without! You now occupy only a thin space in between, that is all that remains for you to hide,

With each day I have more and you have less. You are thinner and thinner (almost 2D!), with no space else to move but inside Me!

Soon you will be all mine.

Where will you go now that you haven't already been before? It never really worked for you.

Where will you hide from me,

where can you?

029_TRUTH

Body manifests truth (it's the manifestation of truth) therefore Body is just another name for Truth.

Truth cannot be destroyed - as Matter (Mother) cannot be destroyed!

We are coming here to bring Matter to life, to make "dead" alive... so we get our own body with birth. Every time!

Body is the "Alexandrian Library" of the whole Universe.

We either read it or we don't.

We either decide to read ourselves or we refuse to know ourselves.

In any case - each one of us has access to the Library.

Nobody is left without it. In Manifestation we all get body.

028_ABORTION

In the Beginning…. there was a woman. There is always a woman at any beginning!

And this woman had a »tool« she couldn't use by herself. It wasn't even meant to be used by her alone. It was meant to feel the need to meet somebody and learn how to use it!

Then a man came to her, and he knew even less how to use his »tool«. So, why would he learn how to use HER tool!

When a woman gets impregnated unwillingly she is confronted by a decision to bring forward a new life –or not!

For her, it's a drama.

It doesn't matter what is her political opinion about abortion. For every woman, abortion is a tragic event.

"Political« decision is a synonym for male decisions. It has got nothing to do with a female decision.

A group of people is by its nature a hysterical formation. It neglects individual feelings.

A movement – in this case a movement pro-Life or pro-Abortion uses the woman and the fetus. What can be used can also be misused?

Inside a pregnant woman carries an embryo that will grow into a child if she allows it to.

The decision is hers! NOBODY, not even God can stop her from whatever she decides she will do.

In all human history, nobody could stop her from doing exactly as she decided she wanted. Maybe she never had the power to decide about anything... but this was her world and in her world, she decides who lives and who dies.

Of course, abortions were forbidden in nearly all the systems but she always found ways to abort, this way or the other if she wanted it.

If not sooner she would kill (or someone to kill the baby for her) after the baby was born.

In Europe this was until under Napoleon the Church gave women a chance to leave the newborn to an orphanage. Before that, the killing of a baby was the usual »solution«. More usual than not - in all countries! (see The History of Childhood, author: Lloyd De Mause, 1974, The Psychohistory Press)

Abortion is not a hobby.

It is not a pleasant experience, it's a very traumatic one whether the woman knows it or not. If it is for her to decide or somebody else decides for her.

What is important here is that the one who is responsible for her state of body and mind when she becomes pregnant… DOESN'T take responsibility for it.

That makes her even more lonely.

When people are lonely they tend to socialize their loneliness.

They hope they will be less lonely that way.

And then – as a group or a movement – they declare their intention with a manifesto!

They use their problem(s) that they couldn't solve individually, or they solve it in a way that a huge trauma remains with them forever unresolved – and they make a political statement about it!

They hide behind it. It is a way for an individual to hide behind the group movement and feel less guilty.

It is difficult to be responsible for everything, just by yourself. I hope you understand that.

But the one who is responsible (the one who begets a new life) refuses to be responsible. Where there is no Responsibility - there is Guilt!

And Guilt is WOMAN.

Let me repeat this: male irresponsibility is woman's guilt.

And now Guilt is God on the planet. It is killing us all.

And still…. Nobody wants to become responsible. They prefer woman's Guilt! They use it and misuse it because it is the only tool they know how to use. It is leverage!

You cannot manipulate people without Guilt! But those who want Guilt out of the way (and off the Planet!) now, ought to become Responsible!

Which they avoid becoming.

Responsibility and Guilt exclude each other. It is either one or the other, there cannot be both.

Both – doesn't exist! It is either-either!

It is a Responsibility OR Guilt.

Guilt has consequences. So has Responsibility. Only Responsibility brings good consequences and Guilt brings horror and punishment and death. Guilt demands victims.

That is the difference between the two.

Guilt sticks to a woman and stays with her. The one who is responsible for her state never was responsible nor he wants to be responsible even now!

Guilt has no way to go. No escape!

I already mentioned: where there is no responsibility there remains guilt!

What is a woman afraid of?

She is afraid that she alone must be responsible for Life. And she alone (often without outside help!) has to take care, feed it, giving it hope…

This is a primordial fear of one who creates LIFE.

The debate about abortion is a debate about male indifference; about how much is a human life worth to a man (and to mankind!) as a phenomenon in the Universe.

Is it worth keeping it alive? Even when it hurts?

It is good to remember that WOMAN gives birth to all men! Good and bad.

If the world treats the woman kindly she will treat humanity kindly.

If nations wage war… it is because the war is inside them.

These humans don't use their »tools« for what they were meant to be used (to make love). They turn them into weapon! Which means into something that wasn't meant to be.

A phrase comes to my mind... a poet

- and spilled ink!

He can't write without any ink, can he.

A woman is spilled ink.

She is a poem!

Imagine what she could tell us. She needs a writer to write HER.

All poems are already there in the spilled ink called WOMAN. They just need to be looked for, adopted, embraced, accepted, understood.

027_THE ORIGINS OF "EVIL"

I believe that all the Biblical stories were meant to be interpreted and re-interpreted, again and again… for this is the way we move along human history: understanding the same things differently! 

This happens parallel to our understanding of the changes that happen with always new experiencing the same. This way all around us becomes new, and some things even becoming alive, for the first time - ever!

So the interpretations are new because they are meant to be this way. They make us new!
They follow our needs, and we must follow our needs. It is meant to be.

I always saw Lucifer as our subconscious part or our Subconsciousness. Most of the time it is deciding for us instead of us deciding consciously.
To speak the truth - our Unconscious decides ALL the time, instead of our Conscious part!

Every student of medicine knows we couldn't be sane in mind without our subconscious part of the self. We'd go insane if we couldn't save (push deep down, away from knowing) all painful and traumatic events we cannot accept at the moment they happen.
This way we create a level of "consciousness" that is a sub-level - but still consciousness it is, altho sub-conscious.

So - subconsciousness is there for a reason. It is there, it exists because it must be what it is!
It plays a role. It is necessary.
So what is the reason for its existence and why is it important that such a possibility exists?

There are many things more painful than we can feel (and accept it by feeling it as Pain!) at the time when it happens. It is too overwhelming and therefore dangerous to be felt all at once - there is too much of it! The organism cannot encompass it and understand it all. We must feel it in fragments so we can deal with it emotionally and finally understand. We cannot understand unless we feel it.
A feeling comes first, understanding comes later!
We are ONLY what we feel. Don't think that we are what they teach us to be(come). We are what we feel. Nothing more, nothing less!
Believe me, it is more than enough. It is all!

But we cannot feel the Pain unless we are certain that we know our feelings are safe to feel. And even then it is no small potato!
If we do it this way we realize that our Pain is not everlasting. We then know it can be felt and can vanish.
Our inner energies are re-directed inside our body and they circulate in a normal way. They do not mass within certain organs and represent dis-ease. Not anymore!


Certainly, we can't deal with too much Pain all at once but we can relive it in fragmental states. Meaning, we can feel parts of the whole Pain but not all at once. 
We could die if we did so. Some do die!

When God created (God being Mother and Father) then »He« part of God couldn't understand all that was happening to Him and Her!
The Intelect (He - part!) wasn't able to explain right away why and where all the creatures were coming from. 
Why all things beget? Why are they born out of Mother and Father? Where do they come from?

And when I say "He", it means the part of God that is other - than Desire. Desire is a She! She is a woman!

Desire is not Intellect, its intelligence is Intuition. 
Intuition is the highest form of knowledge in the Universe.
It already knew what would happen, before Spirit could even think about it!

And it warned the Spirit! But Spirit didn't listen because it (He) needs experiencing first, to be able to learn. Or He won't know! Without first experiencing the World - Spirit cannot know much about it!

Desire, on the other hand, is free-flowing energy that simply has to move, and move wherever She wants.
Desire is very much what we later (through history) perceived as FREEDOM.

The "male" God's job is to create a safe place for Desire to move freely and allow the Desire to express herself!
Desire needs this because She leads the process of creating! 
Desire tells us where to go to fulfill our needs, wishes, will, desires, plans, visions…
The male God is called Spirit or the Intelect, He felt bad about not understanding His Desire! 
After all - Desire is the Mother od EVERYTHING!

He felt not good enough, neglected, not up to do the job, unfit… (male impotence!)
He at the time wasn't being able to follow Her where She wanted to go. And He didn't express it then!
This all went in the lost will... it is now in what Islam and others are doing to women and children: cutting their sex organs to make them not feel their sex.
This is why Spirit and spirit polarized beings as well as civilizations that embrace Body denial don't recognize their Desire.
It comes out of them in a demonic state as the denial of Desire.
It is maiming people. It takes revenge for not listening and obeying God!


In short, while She was moving or wanted to move to create, God didn't recognize Her as His Will!

This is when He started to push down His feelings and they all went to Body! The feelings bothered Him, He wanted to get rid of them and didn't want to be bothered. Like an old scientist at home, working on his computer while the kids are too loud and playful. 

And the place He created for things He labeled »this doesn't exist«, is a room with all things He didn't (at the time) understood. He didn't know where they belong, who was supposed to be responsible for, or even what they want!

These are the things He couldn't find the right place for in the Universe at that time! There simply had to be a place like temporary storage for all things without the place to be there. So they were pushed in the room where things exist in the state called "this isn't here". That is why our Subconscious part manifests as denied Consciousness!

All this couldn't be explained without more experiencing the Manifestation (this is why our world is called: the Manifestation! It manifests).

So God said to himself: I will place all these things in this room and they will wait there until I am ready to explain them. Sooner or later I will have to return to them and see who they are, what they want...unless I can now make them obey my rules.

Then (this is how God planned) when I know where to put them and what they want… I will also know how to treat them. As equals or subordinate...

Here something was missing but the Mother part of God already knew. He didn't know it then but his reasoning should end with: IF, AND WHEN, THEY ACCEPT MY WILL!!!)
Will - being His wife (the Mother!).
That's what Desire is about.

Mother needed someone who will also understand Her not just use Her for pleasure ( which She had nothing against!). So, BODY was created ("invented"). It was born out of Desire. She desired it and the Body was born! The body is Consciousness! Besides being our body that learns and saves the knowledge of the Universe! Which we don't seem to understand and don't yet see the purpose.
We think that body is a "dead" matter which only becomes alive when we come to Earth and dress it up like a suit that we throw away when we die.
But the point is that we can make "dead" things alive and when they live in us they are the Library that can teach us things about our Creation and ourselves in it when we decide to be part of this World. 

The Mother of EVERYTHING gives us body when we come here (when we incarnate) to teach us about HER World. She wants us to understand and accept Her ideas of how Creation should function and how it should develop. 

In the meantime God feels pushed away, feels bad, feels forgotten, unwanted.
The Snake in the Paradise is his Subconscious part detecting His fear of the "unknown". And Intuition feels it!
His Fear takes form in which He then moves to Mother tempting Her:
Go ahead, don't fear... find ways to move through these misunderstandings with God. He is now unable to move with You here… He can't follow you here...
Just how much of it is untrue? All of it is true.)

So, Lucifer is the Subconscious part of God!
This is also the way how Consciousness takes Responsibility for own Subconscious.

That is why we (and our God!) will "empty" and clean all the »spare-rooms« with all the stuff packed inside with lost creatures, forgotten souls, demons who don't know who they belong to or where should they go to... by accepting the content, making it ours!
All the unfinished forms in such a bad shape, in search od a more suitable form to them, the one that will feel good... in search of form, wholeness... These creatures are crazy with Pain! They cannot feel because they don't have a body.

They do not feel! 
That's why they possess other beings with the body and try to rule them. They just think their Pain but they can't feel it because they do not own it! 
They let others feel their Pain.

And that is HELL.

They only depend on their true master. The Creator, The one that created them. They do not have enough Free Will nor they have a body to heal themselves.
And their true master is Consciousness. 

All those demons want to be DELIVERED, they long for it.
But they don't know who their true master is! Nobody seems to be their father.

So they'll turn to anybody ready to take them in.

Lucifer took them in. 
That by itself took a form in our imagination, and then... became dictators of the world. Why? 
Because Consciousness was hesitating! It didn't want to accept "the Unknown". Didn't want the Responsibility for it! So, the Unknown decided it should rule the world. And it does!

Nobody takes in Lucifer and Demons! Everybody is afraid of them.
This is the reason enough they should think they are "perfect" and therefore bigger (and stronger) than God.

Nobody owns them because nobody dares to own them.
So now they stampede throughout this God's Kingdom and ruin God's (Mother's) Creation. Owning it, even though Lucifer never created anything and is not the true owner of all LOST things.
Lucifer makes God's children compete and even kill each other.

So, this »room« is like a patient's craziness, trying to get well (better) and is now on an analyst's couch!

But when this room is too dark and scary and we are afraid to open the door… and there is probably no help from anywhere - other than pills that can keep doors closed tight - we have our Pain unfelt. Then this Pain takes the form of Lucifer. This is what our Mind does: It creates.

How we protect ourselves from feeling the Pain? The body creates defense mechanisms! It is automatic. If the body didn't create them we would die.

We have to dig ourselves out from the deep realms of our souls and whatever we save from there - is the lost child in us! We do it slowly trying to respect the laws of nature and the ability of our body that it will know what to do. That is why we do it slowly and with care.
Exactly like we were saving a drowning kid from some deep water!


What Lucifer is - is every absence of THE Consciousness and therefore Responsibility.
This is why I say that Lucifer works with Guilt and God (Consciousness) works with responsibility.
Where there is one cannot be the other. It is an either-or, situation!

The Subconscious when it is moving (and it always is on the move!) takes a form away from Responsibility. Then it does what it seems right to it: it takes drugs (eradicates consciousness, denies pain, uses Guilt as its tool…). It then kills, steals, plays the game of revenge, it hates, never forgives, and always uses Guilt as leverage to keep the »pain« unconscious as long as possible. Or as long as the body can take it. 
Probably until an OD.

And (mind you) politics is just a drug that does the same thing to us!

So, we are emptying the »room« now.
We place the same sign on this door that God did before us and we claim: This isn't here!
And then we go to vote.

Now we know that not all we think and believe in isn't true! We learn the hard way and still don't know everything. We only know what we dare to feel.

Right now we prefer polarizing because it allows us not to feel! That's the meaning of polarizing, that's why we polarize; not to feel the other!

There is a lot of things to be said here. And we are afraid of all of it.
But with our Mother's (Will's) and Body's help and showing it to our Father Spirit God (who will eventually embrace it all as He embraces us all) we can empty the room and leave the space open for eventual shoving inside the future unknown" events and demons of our device...
So, this place should remain as a possibility, a potential useful storeroom, a waiting room to have more experience and therefore knowledge to decide where all the unknown has its right place; but they will need to accept their own Free Will first!
We will leave this room empty or nearly empty. Ready only for eventual stuff, a waiting room, and potential storage for future things we won't be able to understand right away. A quarantine, if you like!
Until we can trust them. Until we try them first in a way that is safe for us, and safe for them!

But - mind you - there will be very little of those things that we won't be able to understand now. Our knowledge is great! It is not weak. We have learned a lot along the way.

We'll know more when we share them with our Spirit Father! More and more of us will be with God until we are all His! (as we truly are).

And we are with Mother. With Body. We are their Heart.

We will be here with this Planet, which is our true Home. I just wish you would understand how big a heart is this Planet… It loves us with its last grain of sand, with every molecule of water, leaf on a tree…

This planet longs for us to accept it as our HOME. 
It was created to be HOME. But we must feel it as such.
Our first home is - body! We feel our world with feeling our body.

026_THE GAP

Money is just a symbol for something. Very powerful, I think the most powerful so far… but still – just a symbol.
When I hear the word “money” I automatically start thinking what’s this symbol about (which simply means - I am afraid of this symbol! Afraid if I have money or not! Afraid, as long as I don’t know what I want to do with this money)

But enough of my ball and chain and back to our civilization's balls in chains!
For the time being this symbol suits us perfectly!
Until we figure out what is it that we want (I mean what we truly WANT) the symbol remains strong – in us!
So, we believe everything will be ok again as soon as we are back on our way as before. When our past habits return and everything is back as it was, we’ll be alright. I mean we’ll be poor and rich…. something we know a lot about. On both sides of this division (gap, cause the GAP it is!)

The ones without any money envy those with money! Which is alright bc we can deal with it. Even when we can't deal with this – we envy! And we can deal with envy or think we can.

As long as this symbol money represents remains strong, we will know how to deal with life. But what if…?

So, we support it. We think… better support it! In any way, we can.

We bail the banks, we’ll do anything to keep this symbol strong. Money is the one symbol we care to keep strong.
If it’s weak we “heal” it. We do it in the most incredible ways.
We create victims that will pay the price (with death and misfortune, losing their pensions and homes and their savings) so we can save our “weak” god – money!
We have to have it strong! God cannot be weak…. (fuck, My God is weak… that’s why I love Him! He is like me).

We are saving god-money!
It means sacrificing some, perhaps even many in the name of this god we need so strong and powerful and almighty (everything that My God isn’t, btw! Everything that I am not! I believe, humanity is like me).

All to keep this god alive!

I was thinking - even the thieves are somewhat honest. Or they'd like to be.
They don’t steal money because they want to keep stealing for the rest of their lives. They steal it to become normal, respectable, honest!
They dream of going straight. They want to be straight and honest. Or they would "steal" a cab fare by not paying this service when they need it. 

No! They want to be like everybody else and pay for it like everybody else! Like any average, honest citizen.
 They want to buy a car, not steal it! Even when they steal cars for living… they are after money that will make them “honest” because they will buy things with the money!

They want to buy all this as any other rich person does.
So - they steal money. Money makes you honest!
Symbols make people honest in a symbolic (not real) ways.

So, this symbol perfectly satisfies us until it remains strong. So we keep it strong for costs. Whatever it needs – we will do it! There is no other God – is there!
Or is there?
It's all about money anyway.

The truth is somewhat different. When we invest in something, we ALWAYS invest emotions.
Even when it comes down to “it’s only money”, it’s not money – it’s EMOTIONS. WE invest emotions.
In the USA you have a wonderful phrase: put your money where your mouth is.
The rest of the world doesn’t have even that. You probably don’t know what I mean here but if you lived in the world of institutionalized LIE for so many years, you would know too! 
It's called - socialism! Socialism is a planned production of deficiency to enable the regime to re-distribute "poverty" in the way it sees fit.

Things cannot be resolved on a symbolic level!

Symbols are merely masks of our reality; they lie to us, deceive us, guide us in wrong directions – that’s why we create them and that’s why we support symbols. When they become weak we intensify our “religion” and allegiance to our symbols. We find it only natural.

Symbols must be resolved and clarified in a way that connects us to the Beginning when they started!
 When symbols were formed.

They must lead us back to our Origin, where the “real” was swapped for symbolic and got lost (the forgotten or lost Pain of denial!). I believe that we needed a BODY to recall everything we had once lost, mostly the ability to learn about us!. Now we have it. We have a body.

We were then confounded by symbols and we found the Real to be a bit too real for us to carry!
We were kids, for god’s sake!!!

That’s when we stopped trusting our First Parents.
Who didn't have the parents of their own to teach them!

I remember the exact moment this happened to me here with my parents. I questioned myself now, as a grown person, what happened to me as a baby in yet non-verbal stage of life. Why and when I stopped trusting (believing in everything she says or does) my mother?
It had to do with shit (which in my mind is the symbol for money).

I was freshly bathed, cleanly washed, and – naked! (naked means no symbols on me). She put clean me in the middle of a snow-white clean sheet on the double bed!
I was in the middle of it, happy, screaming with joy.
FREEDOM was intoxicating, I felt HAPPY, freedom exploded in me…. so relaxing….
And then I defecated.
I shit on this clean, vast, white surface! Leaving my mark in the Universe!

I produced a wonderful, powerful proof of my health, living steaming proof of my strength, my productivity, my creativity, my talent….

I was proud! I wanted to say: Look mommy – look at me! Look what I have done….

But she was angry. I could see it in her face and I didn’t know why! Why couldn’t she share my happiness?!
That was the moment the gap between me and her was created.

I didn’t understand why. Hell, on her side of truth this meant cleaning it all up – again!
Repeating the job (she probably had other things to do). But for me, it meant: well, I see she doesn’t appreciate me…
she doesn’t want me to be happy….
So there is something wrong with her (not me, hell – no! I am HAPPY…. How could that be wrong?!)

 In my mind it imprinted this:
the grownups think (feel) differently than I feel (and then think).
I cannot trust them all the time. So, I will have to save some of my memories and wait for a better moment. When I grow up I’ll understand how they think (feel). (I learned they think, not feel!).

The good side of it is – I then became dual!
I kept with me the thinking and the feeling part of me.  Practically I started taking care of me, while the expressing part of me was an act that others would accept. I took good care of me. Only I knew that I have a child inside and that I couldn’t live without it if I gave him up like others do. Never met anyone talking about inner child til much, much later on!

In short: I kept my shit together!

The symbolic life means a relationship that has not evolved.
Since this relationship never happened it was replaced by its symbol. Symbols have symbolic reactions and people deal with it because they can learn it. So they don’t get punished!

The real self they keep inside until it is no longer theirs. That’s the GAP.
A direct relationship is being replaced by symbolic expression.
Nobody seems to miss true relationships because it seems it is easier to live a sYmbolic life on the symbolic level. The relationship we needed never happened, it just wasn't there!

For some reason, the normal response to the stimulus and normal expressions were suppressed. It became unimportant.
Never developed! So – WE never developed fully. This would otherwise come naturally, to react fully and truthfully…  and it would be logical as a response, appropriate.
The communication should be normal and our speech would be truthful, no lies involved!
So why did the usual communication changed to a symbolic one?
That's what we have to be interested in!

In an individual, the cause of this anomaly is traumas from our childhood! In mankind, it is the interrupted dialog with our God, Creator(s), First Dad and Mom!

The word religion implies to "religare".
In Latin: to tie, fasten. 
RUOW terminology says: healing the GAP!
But first, we need to trust the One on the other side of the gap. And the one on this side of the gap as well where we are!

025_WHO'S WINNING

What if I'm God and you are just wardens in your prison cells,

closed deep in dark dungeons of your mind, torturing everything that is mine in you... 

You have been playing a wicked game with me, never letting me out to be free in your world, never showing me Freedom...

What am I doing to you if I am God?!       

I fight for my own Life in you - if I am God!

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Where does this come from if not out of me and my experiences in this world!? Where is it from if not from His experiences with me.

Matter is the sum of all experiences in the Universe!

Man always thought inspirations come from above.

They come from within, out of his depths, his body, from the Matter.

They come from the aura of this planet, and Her Pain.

Besides incredible beauty it expresses the yearning of harshness of this world we live in now and have to live with - until we change it. It will change for us gladly if we only allow it.